An introduction.

I'll look back on this some day and think, "Wow what was I thinking?" As an inevitably older and hopefully wiser version of myself reads on, it is my goal to know exactly what I was thinking and try to describe what I was feeling. That's the purpose of this blog: "To express my thoughts and feelings in a simple and efficient medium of communication." I chose to blog because journals hurt my hand and social media bugs me. I love writing, so I chose this medium. I don't want this to be for gainning attention. I didn't start this to gain followers, get retweeted, or collect 10,000 likes; this blog is for my own use. I want you to read it. Some of it will offend you, it may inspire you, but at the end of the day, that's your call. If you can make sense of all of this, we should talk, because frankly, I can't. Which brings me to what this blog is about:

Like I said before, this blog is about my own self-expression. More specifically this is a place where I can externally deconstruct my own experiences and in the process, learn something about myself. The title comes from this theory that I have: which stems on two factors. As and adoptee I grew up with a fractured identity. In some senses I am white, in others I'm asian, and in many cases: I'm neither. Also, as I've walked through life, I've developed different roles, titles, and identities. This blog will address these personas as the characters that I play. I don't claim to be any one of these, because in some ways I am all of them, and in someways I am none of them. Truth is, I'm not sure exactly who I am. Through this blog, I hope to see more and more of that puzzle.

Before we begin that journey, I wanted to state a few more things that will serve as foundations for this Blog:

1.) I am a follower of Jesus Christ. I will say things that are extremely controversial and may not reflect what a Christian is "supposed" to be. Thanks be to God for the grace He extends on these things, so regardless of your belief or lack there of, please be graceful in how you react or respond. I want to be honest with who I am and what I feel on this blog, so first and foremost, I am a Christian.

2.) Secondly, I am a Korean-American Adoptee. I'm 100% sure this will come up again and again, quick recap: My birthmother put me up for adoption when I was an infant in Korea and I was adopted by a loving and wonderful white family in Minnesota who loves me and raised me in that cultural context. I have struggled a lot with my identity, especially with belonging and loneliness.

3.) Lastly, I'm human. At the end of the day, I am just a person. On this blog, I will address aspects of my life, personality, heart, etc. in ways that may seem like I am more than I am, but at the end of the day, I hope I'm human. I am just as flawed, good-hearted, and messed-up as the next guy. And the truth about that "next guy," really the truth about us all is, "we're all just a bunch of kids trying to figure out what love is."

So what is to come is uncensored and honest, sometimes brutally so. You know a little about me, you have a vague idea about what this blog is about, and now, we will see what happens.

Hi, I'm Dan. It's a pleasure to meet you. Let me tell you about myself.